I'm angry at the world today. I can't understand why bad things happen to good people. It's wrong. He's fought so hard, and it's not enough. I didn't think I'd feel this way again, so angry and... god I'm being so fucking selfish.
Need to be there for him now.
I just can't understand a world that gives a 24 year old terminal cancer.
I'm swinging between rage and utter self-serving sorrow. Apologies in advance for being crazy.
I will be... for a while - need to NOT be infront of him. I'm not a monster, but I don't think it would do him any good to see people so upset.